- April 18th, 2008
I cant wait to be done with school. This semester has sucked so much and I have no motivation left to further nourish it.
On the other hand, I am so glad it is actually starting to get warm. I love the smell of spring, or rather of warmth period. There really is a smell, I am not crazy. Hopefully someone gets what I am saying.
I miss living by a forest. I use to hate it, but now I miss hearing the frogs singing at night. It is too quite around here.
I cant fall asleep tonight. I need to start sleeping more. I hear sleep deprivation causes weight and that is a very touchy subject for me.
I am pretty confident with myself now though. About fucking time though, it only took about 10 years of my conscious life. Granted before the age of nine, I was oblivious to all the physical standards of society and therefore could not fall victim to them. Hopefully my confidence lasts this time and does not manage to slip away as before.
I do need to start eating better though. I dont want to eat at night anymore, or when I am not hungry. I want to cut fast food to about once a month or none at all. Im starting to work on these things, but its hard to change eating habits, at least for me.
At least it is warm now though, so I can get outside more. No more snow.